Looking for a Different Love

Funny how some things make you evaluate how you've progressed over time. My ex made a serious bid this past weekend for us to get back together and we had a long discussion/argument about what happened the first time around and why we can or can't (depending on who you ask) do it all over again. Anyhow, it made me realize that when we first got together, I was looking for someone to take care of me, which is probably why I had no problem being a househusband for over two years.

No more. I'm looking for someone to complement me now--someone I can be part of a team with. I want someone I can grow with and support while he supports me in reaching my goals.

Some things, however, don't change. I'm still looking for that crazy, consuming love. And I always will be looking for that. Nothing about love should be lukewarm or casual. I know that passion exists because I've had it. Unfortuntely, it hasn't lasted yet, but it will.

No more looking for a caretaker. I want a partner. I want someone I can be crazy in love with and who will feel the same about me. It's a matter of keeping the faith now, which gets difficult at times...

J