I'm Ready!

I am so sick, it's ridiculous. I haven't felt this out of it in a long time. I'm stuffed up, my head's foggy, and my eyes feel like they're about to pop out of my head. The worst part is I have no idea what I have. For a while, I wrote it off as allergies, but that doesn't seem to be the case. It's all sitting in my throat. I'm hoping it's just a really bad cold.

Anyhow, I've already booked this weekend. I can't afford to go out of commission. Too much to do, people to see that I haven't seen in too long. Maybe a good shower will perk me up. That and a nap. I'm sure going out drinking last night didn't help any, but who am I to pass up a good night out with friends? Sometimes, duty calls. :p

Oh, and I came to a realization a couple nights ago. I was at a bar with my best friend and we were talking about things in general (there's nothing like a good two-hour conversation with your best friend) and, of course, relationships came up (when don't they), and I realized--I'm ready for love. Sounds strange, I know. Kind of random. But it's one of those things that happens and you don't even notice it until you catch up with yourself.

Now, that may sound basic, but after the emotional toll of the last couple of years, I became a champion at avoiding any kind of emotional attachments. But I'm open to it now. I read somewhere that things happen when we will them to happen, that we have more control over circumstances than we think we do. Well, I'm announcing to the universe that I'm ready to go at it again. This doesn't mean I don't appreciate the time that I've been single or that I'm going to rush into handing over my heart again. But I need some good love again. It's that time.

J