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So it's been almost two months... I've been avoiding this blog. For several reasons. I didn't want any remnants of my relationship staring me in the face. I didn't want to whine and rant; I've been doing plenty of that with friends in person.

It's been nearly two months since I've been thrust back into singledom. Can I say it's gotten easier? I wish I could. I'm just more erratic now. I can go so quickly from being fine to having to double over from memories. How do I do this? How did I do this? It's like starting a new story. No matter how many stories you write, you always start the new one with a blank page, no prescribed instructions. It's a little terrifying each time. And even though I've been through the end of six relationships, I wonder how I ever did it. How did I fill the void that was left behind? How do I stop remembering everything? How am I supposed to imagine everything without him, when I had done everything with him?

J